It's been raining so long, I forgot what it's like not to have rain. It even rained when we went fishing last night.
I've been in a peculiar set of moods lately. I seem to be getting my libido back, which is a huge yay, but I also seem far less driven to write, which is a huge boo. I've been feeling more reclusive. I'm alright socializing in groups of three or so, but not in groups any larger than that. I feel like I don't have much interpersonal stamina at the moment.
So I didn't go to the baby shower for Squeaky and Insanity's kid yesterday; I felt bewildered and overwhelmed at the prospect. Napalm also was feeling non-social, which is more or less his default state. I did however, go fishing with the Sunday Gamers. I expected that Ironcat and I would be the only ones to show, so it might be low-energy enough to let me relax. Turned out we had a few more folks than that, but it still went ok, as the guys were primarily focused on the act of fishing.
I needed to leave a little early to pick up Napalm and a couple other folks because there was supposed to be a LAN party. See, a LAN party doesn't count as socializing, because all you're doing is trying to kill each other. That's rather anti-socializing, come to think of it. And I wasn't up to playing anyway - I like to egg Napalm on.
But the LAN party was aborted because the target area was overrun with non-combatants. Phooey. So we few riding in Lake Lumina picked up some Taco Hell and watched Tron instead.
I don't want a dramatic life. I don't want to be center stage. I don't like much attention. I just want some peace, some time with the people I love, and the chance to do the stuff I like to do. People don't really understand that, it seems sometimes. My hair isn't purple because I want attention. My hair is purple because I like the way I look with purple hair. I feel comfortable that way. If I wanted attention, I would go places and show it off. Maybe wear sexy clothing to amplify the effect. Maybe act really wild and crazy. But I've been there and done that, pretty far back in my youth, and it got old. Too much effort, too little return.
I like the quiet life. Quiet doesn't have to be boring, though sometimes it is. But it's peaceful and I'm happy, and that's the way I like it.
