28 Sep 01

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Log File Fun

Last night was the first time I had a chance to really review the log files in a great deal of detail. This really gave me a good picture of where people are coming from and what they are finding. All sorts of old vestigal pages from my former life were still getting hits thanks to spidered catalogues of obscure references. I even found some pages from my ex's old site that got mixed up into mine accidentally something on the order of four years ago.

So today was website housecleaning day. I also took the time to tidy up my meta tags, which were in such disarray that a search for my own name would take people directly to a much older site that used to be hosted on Geocities, no less. This means fresh search engine submission too.

I'm feeling more and more isolated from our friends, as the Heroes game, which usually meets every other Sunday, keeps getting cancelled lately, and the Mage game, on the other Sundays, is now to be beyond my access as well. Due to the small size of the gaming area, non-playing visitors (that is Napalm and me) have been asked not to come over after all.

The host made a point of reminding me that we do get together for dinner usually after the games, and that it would be a wonderful time to visit. That's very sweet and it is some consolation, but it isn't the same. The more I think about it, the sadder I get.

I need to be a grown-up about this. This is one of the subjects about which I am still a big baby. Getting excluded is a sore spot for me, and repeated rejection sends a message, intentional or not, that I am not liked and not wanted. It's really infantile to feel this way, to make such assumptions. So I'm trying to grow up a little and be rational. So far, every reason for a no has been a really good, sensible reason.

I thought I was tougher than this. Well, it's an opportunity to grow. Let's get some of that done. 

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